When Two Roads Collide

How is it that life can be going along on an even keel and suddenly taking a drastic turn?  One day you are walking down the path you feel you were meant to take and the future seems all aligned in happy accord.  Then, unexpectedly someone or something crosses your path and your attention and heart are ripped open and exposed to feelings you never even imagined having.  I am at this point in my life in many ways.  Changes are coming and I HATE change.  Well, I don't think that I hate change I think I fear what it will bring.  Change that I have chosen brings its own amount of anxiety and insecurity; I think this is natural and expected.  However, when something so unexpected rears its way onto the path it throws me for a loop and makes me question everything.  I know that I am to trust God will all this, and I do.  I just get confused as to what to do in the here and now.  How do I know I am doing what it is God is wanting me to do rather than doing what I want to do?  It is especially difficult when others' emotions are involved.  As humans it is hard not to over think everything.  Well, for this human it is.  However, as one who professes to trust God I should do just that.  Let go and let God.  Stop holding my breath fearing I will make a false move, a wrong decision, whatever.  I should take a deep breath, close my eyes, and release my life into His hands.  It's there anyway, might as well accept it and let go and let be.  A friend of mine is helping me to practice this concept.  I am learning from said friend that God is our pilot and I am just in the co-pilot's chair.  I must give full control to God and be along for the ride.  When God sees I am ready He will let me assist in the navigation of this plane.  Fortunately, for me my life is not in my hands but in the everlasting Father's.  My time is not His time.  He has a way of bending events and time into workings far more beautiful than we could ever imagine.  Patience is a virtue.